How could this happen to me....

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got nowhere to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

-Excerpt of Simple Plan's "Untitled", courtesy of www.elyrics.net

That was the excerpt of the lyrics of an old favourite of mine. As I was listening to it the other day, I can't help but asked myself the same. As before, the answer didn't change an iota;that I had walked into this ambush with my eyes wide open, that the one time I chose to listen to and then blatantly ignore the cynical pragmatism in me was the nth time I get so screwed over. Likewise, as before, there can only be one answer to all this;that is to wipe away all this talk of hope and rainbow after the storm for they are nothing forlorn hope, serving no purposes other than to really do you in when reality hits.

Most importantly, to remember that cynicism and pragmatism exist for a reason.

Self-denial....

我不难过

这不算什么

只是为什么眼泪会流

我也不懂

-Lyrics from Stefanie Sun's "我不难过".

I was listening to Stefanie's "我不难过" the other day. This was the song that got me started on liking Stefanie's songs. It struck me, as it did then, how much the above captioned part of the song reeks of self-denial.

I watched Love Happens yesterday. It was apparent early on in the movie that Burke, the male protagonist, was constantly living in self-denial, that he had not forgave himself for his wife's death in an accident.

The conventional wisdom is that self-denial is the greatest obstacle to a recovery from the trauma, for by acknowledging the trauma, as with any problems, is to give the trauma the due acknowledgment that you do need to do something about. Yet many a time, I wonder if anybody had ever considered that by wallowing in self-denial, one might actually be carrying out damage control, to save the grief for oneself if you would....

Hope...

I had recently caught a screening of 500 Days of Summer.Despite its male protagonist seemingly moving on at the finale of the movie after going through a relationship that would certainly crush anyone,I can't help but continue to feel for him when he was still forlornly hoping that he could get back with Summer, the female protagonist.

Friends had been unanimous in telling me not to lose hope,that having hope meant that it's half the battle won.That's fine and dandy,except that they were equally unanimous in not realising that hope is a double-edged sword;none gave cognizance to the fact that the higher one's hope is,the harder one falls.